Representation/ Are we ever satisfied?

May I ask, "Are we ever satisfied with our representation?"  I am wondering this as I go into my third relationship.  I wonder if I want too much, or if I haven't been clear about my needs.  This is starting to sound like other relationships I have been in; however, I do ask myself these questions.  I see women who look me and whom I think are just as talented as I in pieces that I didn't even know existed.  Don't get this twisted, I send love to every woman who gets up in the morning and chooses to do the work that I have chosen to do.  It ain't easy.  They (the business) are always telling us where to improve or what we should change now, so I am not sending shade to anyone.  I know what is for me is for me (cliché, but true), but I can't help wondering, "WHY DIDN'T I KNOW ABOUT IT!" This is when I start doing my checklist.  Y'all know what that is.  In romantic relationships that's when you start running down all the negative stuff your significant other has done and where they have met the mark...but just barely! You know you still love 'em, want to be with 'em, but why couldn't they just have picked the perfect restaurant for the date or called exactly on time when they said they would. I have these types of moments when I am ruminating.  Don't tell me I am the only one out there.